Being a writer is like having a perpetual crush on all the readers.
You like them.
You think they might like you too.
It seems as though maybe they do?
Well, you hope so.
Yeah, actually you were totally kidding yourself, they think you’re yucky and a loser and they hate you forever.
For every book you write.
There’s no getting past it.
No matter how many books you’ve written and released, no matter how successful they may have been, with every new release the butterflies are back.
What if *this* one is rubbish?
What if it’s been too long since your last release and everyone has forgotten you?
What if they never liked you anyway and just bought your previous books out of pity or because their mum made them?
On the other hand, accepting that not everyone will like you back is part of being a writer. Aso a grown up generally, to be fair. Trusting that if you’re passionate about a story, it will find people who are just as passionate about reading it, sooner or later, is the only way forward.
Which is of course easier said than done.
Like every author, I have a handful of one star reviews. I don’t pay masses of attention to reviews generally, because they’re really for other readers rather than for the author (if you didn’t like it there’s not much I can do about it now!) Even so I stumble across them now and then, and the scathing ones range from baffling and comical to meh, a stranger who read my book! All good 😎
I guess that’s like a date with a crush that at least left you with a funny story.
The release of a new book is like the talking stage. You’re putting yourself out there, making contact, getting the dizzying highs of a new newsletter sign up or a comment or message from someone already on board, and the crushing lows of posting something to the empty void of NOBODY CARES, CLAIRE.
You won’t really know whether the book is a winner until further into the relationship. Once it’s out, people will read, review, recommend to friends, or they won’t. But for now, it’s all hope.
Terrifying, thrilling, taunting hope!